Have you ever had that one relationship that you just can't forget? No matter how hard you try, there it is. There she is.
I'm not the kind of person who sits and cries in her corner of depression after every breakup. But for some reason, I cannot stop thinking abou her. She's not even the first person to break my heart. But ever since she left me, it hasn't been the same.
I don't think she even remembers me. It's been so long. We were 15. Young. Full of emotions we didn't understand.
But I loved her. Like Iv'e never loved anyone. I love my boyfriend, but I'm not quite sure how to tell him that I'll never love him like I loved....no....love her.
I don't want him out of my life. But this isn't fair to him. I don't want to treat him as a consolation prize. I still love the girl that will never be in my life again. I don't know how to get past this.

This is so cheesy. But it's everything I feel. Thank you CryBabySkater for letting me use your journal idea^^


I Still by BACKSTREET BOYS

Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?

No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)

I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know

That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

No no
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go (without you)

Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you


I'm not looking for sympathy or fake words of comfort. I just needed to get it out. Thank you for your time if you read this.